Every December I always make time for myself to do a little review of the year. My end of the year reflections. I enjoy thinking about what I learned, what mistakes I made and what I can do to make the next year better. That way, I can work easily on my New Years resolutions and wishes. I’m crazy about New Year rituals (I’ll be writing a blog post about them too) and let me tell you, it’s great to start the new year like you can conquer everything you want.
This is a very personal post (and long!), so I hope you can enjoy it! I love every time I get to open my heart on my blog. As a summary. My end of the year reflections are about adulting, not finding a job and personal growth. If you are going through something similar then you would love this.End of the year reflections are always great! Especially for learning from your mistakes and to think about what you can do to make the next year better. Click To Tweet
End Of The Year Reflections
This year was very special to me. It was full of changes and personal growth. It was the break I needed it from the adult life, so I could know myself better and regroup. After graduating college in December of 2016, I was feeling lost, confused and without knowing what to do with my new life. A real quarter life crisis going on. And it sucked.
So what did I do? I started Elephant on the Road! I needed to focus on something else. I needed to feel like I was doing something productive. And I needed to stop comparing myself to my other classmates who were already finding jobs. I wanted a job, but I wanted it on my own terms. I wanted something that made me happy and made me feel useful. And it seemed like that dream job didn’t exist. So I end up enjoying my summer and working on my new blog.
The first months
March started and real life hit me like a truck. Everyone was starting school again or returning to their usual routines at work. And here I was, still wondering my next steps. What was obvious? I needed to find a job even if I didn’t want to. It was the right thing to do and I didn’t want to disappoint my parents. They were starting to get worried, about what they thought, was my lack of interest in finding a job. When in reality, I was dealing with something bigger.
The time passed and nothing happened. May was starting and I still was waiting for at least one interview. At that moment I already sent at least fifty résumés (maybe more). There was a point where I couldn’t apply to more jobs because I already applied to all of them. So I started to look somewhere else.
And yet, not even a rejection email I was getting. Which was very frustrating! I even worried about my email being wrong so I double check everything I sent. And nope, every detail was okay. At that point, I was feeling depressed. I thought that I wasn’t good enough. Even though I was bilingual, I had a college degree, I graduated with honors, and I did two internships. And besides all that, no one seemed to want me.
So it was then when I thought that maybe I wasn’t the problem and I needed to find a solution to this mess. If I couldn’t find a job, what was the next logical step for me? Create that job for me and generate my own money, with my own rules. F*ck all those companies! I didn’t need them to be successful or to feel complete. Not having a regular job after graduation didn’t mean I was a fail. It just meant that I wanted to do what was the best for me.Not having a regular job after graduation didn't mean I was a fail. It just meant that I wanted to do what was the best for me. Click To Tweet
After The Realization
It was June and I already knew what I had to do. I made a decision and there was no going back. I talked with my dad and he gave me his blessing. I was excited! I was about to start my own company. So after signing all the paperwork I needed, at the end of June, I was the owner of a business.
So naturally, I started to panic. Was I ready? Was I smart enough to make it work? Did I make the right decision? What if I fail? I was constantly thinking: ‘God, please guide me. Just show me the path I need to take’. And at this point is where the real personal growth started.
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The first three months I was focused on not disappointing my parents. On not looking like a failure and in doing what everyone thought was the right thing to do in this crazy world we live on. Finding a job after graduating college is important. But after being a student for more than seventeen years, the shock from leaving that life and go directly to adulthood and new experiences can mess with anyone. It happened to me and I’m definitely not the only one who has gone through it.
And why it was so hard for me to start adulting? I grew up in a bubble. A very thick bubble where I was protected from everything. I didn’t have to worry about paying bills. The only requirement I had since I was 6, it was passing all my classes. I didn’t have to be the best student. I just have to pass everything and enjoy myself.
So realizing that life was over, hit me hard.
Personal GrowthLife is all about changes and we shouldn't be scared of them. But it happens, and it's okay. Click To Tweet
Life is all about changes and we shouldn’t be scared of them. But it happens, and it’s okay. I was lucky enough to be part of a family that, even though they weren’t sure what was going on with me, showed me love and were understanding of my situation. And the most important thing, they supported me. My parents could have made an ultimatum. But instead, they gave me time. And that was exactly what I needed.
Do I feel prepared for adulting now? Kinda. I still feel like a little girl, but at least I know where to go now. I know what my next steps are going to be. And even though I’m still worried about not being good enough and failing, I’m taking the chance on something that will be better for me. And that will make me feel happier and less trapped.
Taking a year to concentrate on yourself and grow up might be something that some people need. I did. And it was the best. If you are in a similar situation then take this advice and do it. I know that not everyone has the same opportunity I had. Which sucks because I think it’s very important. Sometimes we are so hurried by the society to make important decisions fast, right after High School, that we don’t know if at the end that will be the best for us.Sometimes we are so hurried by the society to make important decisions fast and right after High School; that we don't know if, at the end, that will be the best for us. Click To Tweet
What a year, huh? I have some expectations and goals for 2018 that I can’t wait to achieve and make them come true. It’s going to be a great year!
Tell me about your end of the year reflections! What was the best of 2017? Let me know in the comments!